"Wow" Never use interjections in interviews

As I begin to think about data collection, I realize just how careful one must be in posing interview questions. And I now truly understand all the readings we have done in this class and in others about the careful wording one must use to elicit sound responses. I realize how easy it would be to pose a question to get the answer that one wants. For example, I am looking to see how the use of blogging affects student revision work in writing. I know that I want to hear wonderful things from students about this, but I also want true answers so I have to be very careful. I could say "Wow, isn't blogging great?" But this is tricky. Students may not feel it is great, but may pick up on my enthusiasm from the Wow, and might answer with a response that they think I want to hear over what their real impression is. I want to share my interest, but I don't want to color my participant's responses. I am also quite aware of the power differential and the fact that in qualitative research, the interviewer is or can be the significant power figure. This points to the importance of making sure participants are listened to and involved. Interviewing and the job of moderator as expressed in the articles is very key. One needs to know how to conduct and moderate a successful interview without letting power get in the way, but at the same time must control the environment so the goal is reached. Having an MBA in marketing really helped when I read the article that talks about focus group interviews and the move from marketing into social sciences, especially the part that talks about the business people watching the interviews. I liked the comment from one of the educators that mentioned that an IRB would have a field day with the silent-observation. Focus groups did help our business. I would like to conduct both private one on one and a group interview with the students in my project to see how their individual reports mesh with the group reports. From a socially constructivist perspective, it will be interesting to see how the sharing of information helps define meaning and importance.

The End of the Beginning...

I feel like the end of the beginning is in sight in regards to this course's mini-inquiry project.  I think that I've developed, with helpful feedback from Kristen and classmates, a good research problem, purpose statement, research questions, conceptual map, and narrative to go along with the map.  Of course I need to complete the IRB proposal but that will be this week's work...

So it's now on to the middle of the project.  For my case study, that will mean determining the participant pool and sampling that pool purposefully.  My method of data collection will be interviewing.  This method makes the most sense in terms of qualitative research in that I want to collect first-hand information from participants in an engaging and in the most authentic way as possible.

This kind of interviewing will be new for me.  Before I became a teacher, I spent years working in retail, mostly as a manager.  I interviewed prospective employees many times although I was never really comfortable at it.  I don't think I did it enough ever to really become comfortable at it.  But then again, as a teacher, I have interviewed.  Now that I think more about it, every time I sit down with a student (and now a teacher in my role as a literacy coach) and have basically a substantive conversation, I am interviewing.  I may not have a guide in front of me but I usually am following some sort of mental framework in what I am talking about with a student or teacher.  As I've participated in such encounters more and more, I've tried to work on being a better active listener, listening more, in other words, and talking less.  This happens to all of us...someone is talking to us and our minds wander, thinking about what we need to do or where we need to go and in the end, we have not usually heard a word that the other person has said.

In this blog entry, I was going to write about the deMarrais chapter and how instructive and useful I thought it was and will be as I prepare for the data collection part of this project.  The chapter does have some great information about creating an interview guide along with what should happen as the interview process unfolds.  I particularly like the "dinner with a close friend" metaphor that the author uses to describe how a good interview should progress.  But as I was writing and thinking, the entry became more about how I do have some valuable experience interviewing already and it's experience that most of us who are teachers already have.  If we talk with our students in ways that make them comfortable yet provide us (and them) with valuable information, then we are already conducting successful interviews and only need to tweak what we do a bit in order to be successful in our interviewing as a part of our qualitative research projects!

Conceptual Framework

In working on the diagram and narrative for my conceptual framework,I began to see more clearly why a study I began thinking about as a quantitative study, needs to be a case study. A week or two ago, when I wrote my research question and subquestions, the questions could have applied to either a quantitative or qualitative study. As I reworked my diagram, I realized that the 2 cases I am studying are so individualized (two of my high-needs special ed students), that much of the meaning that could be found in studying them would be lost if I approached writing about them in an impersonal style. In order to really tell their stories, I will need to include my own views and experiences as an educator and with these particular students, in a way which is only possible through qualitative research. An indepth focus on each of my two cases will be required to seek out the what can be learned, and possibly generalized, from studying them. Much would be lost in lumping them into quantitative study groups.

Now, to start reading lots of case studies and figuring out how this is really done!

My "eyes", not to be confused with my "I's!

Fellow bloggers and classmates,

I am sitting here at my laptop as I am at CVS awaiting a prescription for eye drops. I am not in class because I have pink eye. Yes, a 32 year old woman with pink eye. Perhaps this was my body's way of getting into the "spirit" of Valentine's Day depsite my desire to ignore the festivities of the day! UGH! I need to add another I to my post below and that is the spread way too thin, wondering will I ever get ahead I?
You see, I was so looking forward to tonight's class. I had my research questions ready to share with my peers and was psyched because I knew there would be an excellent dialogue for me. I also started working on my IRB. I felt pumped and invigorated, ahead of the game actually after last weeks class. And then, true to form, proverbial HELL breaks loose. My house, which I have been trying to sell last week had a flood. I came home on Friday to a bulging ceiling in my basement. Two weeks ago, a tree fell on the inground pool and tore the liner---causing ALL of the water to drain from the pool. It just seems like it is always something. And then I realized, that it is always something. There will always be something.And maybe part of learning is understanding that.

Why am I telling all of you all of this? Because you are my peers, because I value your insight, and mostly because I thought you all, more than everyone else,could probably relate!

My I's

Peshkin ( 1988 ) asserts that it is important for researchers to identify their own subjectivity as a step to understand how this subjectivity impacts their research. Reflecting on this subjectivity is an ongoing process, as often times our individual circumstances change and what we might identify with at one point in time will likely differ at a future point based on our present situations. So, who am I right now? This is a complex, yet important question for me to keep asking, particularly because I am in a period of huge transition and personal transformation.
After reading Peshkin’s article, there were several of his “I”’s that I connected with. Because I raised in a wonderfully supportive, loving, loyal blue collar family and am the only person in my family to graduate from college, I identify with what Peshkin(1989) calles the “Justice Seeking I” (p.19). I have been lucky to have tremendous opportunities that have provided me with the financial means to pursue several degrees. However, I am acutely aware that not all people are lucky enough to have these same opportunities and so my goal is to do what I can to “level the playing field” . I hope that at the end of this program, my research will improve the lives of students and provide them with the opportunity to excel. I have many ideas about possible literacy outreach programs I would like to implement with students and parents of lower socioeconomic status as well as students who have been identified as having learning disabilities and their families.
The “teacher of students with learning disabilities I” is another separate “I” that also fuses together with the “Justice Seeking I”. I have taught students with language based learning disabilities for ten years and have some pretty strong ideas, some based on personal experience, some on training I have received and all supported by research in the field. During my reading of Peshkin , I laughed as he describes his “Pedagogical Meliorist I”(p.19) and his desire to “remedy bad teaching” thinking to myself as I read and annotated the text with a huge “!!!” that his description perfectly applies to me!
My final “I” is the hardest to admit to as it is the most personal; however, it is the most important for me to acknowledge. I call this the “passionate about my beliefs and/ or (ahem)...the very stubborn I”. I must be really careful to monitor this I because it could very easily turn into “I know all the answers and am always right I”. I am sure that makes me sound like an arrogant, know it-all, but if this is really meant to be an honest reflection, then that needed to be stated.


I see myself as a mixture of all of these I's. Under some circumstances some of these I's are more prevalent than others. But together, they make up a large part of who I am at this moment as a researcher.
So, is this my “final answer” to the question of “who am I”? Absolutely not! This is a question that I will keep asking myself. I am looking forward to seeing how the answer might evolve over the course of this semester.

Qualitative researchers must be a flexible Gumby

Yesterday was one of those days in school that pinpointed for me some of the readings about how intune qualitative researchers need to be with what they want to do, how it colors their observations and what is really happening with the group being studied. I was teaching the class some strategies for editing and revising sections on the state tests coming up in March. It was boring work, but necessary and I could see the glazed over eyes. In response, I changed the presentation style and saw an improvement, but only a slight one. At that moment, a teacher who is training me on the Moodle, the on-line learning system we are putting into place entered the room to hand me some information on what I had learned the day before during the two hour pd. I had really enjoyed that pd. We learned how to create personal avatars. When he came in, I asked him if he was busy or could we stop for a moment and introduce the students to what we had learned. He was able to do it, so the lesson changed. He began his introduction and the class, at first, only marginally listened. It was just another teacher standing in the front of the room, but shortly into the presentation, I noticed a change. The doodling subsided, the room became more quiet, you could see the attention increase. Soon, there was an observable difference in motivation and engagement, and in questions. As the students saw just how interactive and immediate their work could be on the blog sites their interest soared as did my passion. In fact, at one point when I said let's show them the avatars I was so excited I slipped off the desk I was sitting on. They laughed, but they could see the passion I had. Shortly thereafter, one boy, AZ who asks every day do we have homework (even though he knows we will) because he is not always homework-compliant said "I can't wait to do my homework." Then it changed for me. Then I realized that maybe my idea of what to study shifted. Then I thought about the fact that what I wanted to study may need to change or may need to change in its intensity. I wanted to (and still do) want to look at writing on line to see how it changes, how it is different both in form and in quality to standard, formal paper and pen writing. I still want to understand how writing in a different medium will change writing, but I also decided that another very important arena might be how student motivation and engagement is affected by the online world of delivering instruction. We live in such an immediate world, instant oatmeal, instant breakfast, instant messages. Kids like immediate feed back and the idea that they can get immediate feedback, see their work, assess their work, get peer feedback etc almost immediately is enticing. I became acutely aware how I might be changing in response to what I was seeing. My Teacher-I kicked in as I noticed a potential teachable-moment, a venue that would not only interest the students, but keep them engaged. I began to wonder how inclass work and participation and interest might be affected by the work they do online and at home. Would inclass discussion be changed by the discussions they have with each other over the internet. Would their work increase in quality as they have more resources available to them? In my Teacher-I, my quest is to make them life-long learners and passionate human beings. Certainly, increasing their motivation and stimulating their passions might indeed create more active engagement and more passionate learners and human beings.

I also realized that I have to be careful with my Passionate-I because I have to realize that my passion might affect someone else. My passion is mine, but it shouldn't be a coercive tool to engender someone else's passion. It might be an I that has to be checked and monitored.

What Are My "I"s?

It appears that qualitative research can be greatly affected by the subjectivity and biases of the researcher behind the work.  As a qualitative researcher just starting out, I will need to explore my subjectivity, my biases, what Peshkin (1988) calls "I"s in his article, "In Search of Subjectivity - One's Own."  For this week's blog entry, the assignment is to explore one's subjective "I"s that could potentially affect future research work.  What follows is my current thinking on what my subjective "I"s are at this moment.

I think I need to start with the fact that I am a teacher at heart.  The "teacher I" is a strong one in that I have been an educator for about a decade now.  It is a career for me, a second one started later in life, but one that I had thought about pursuing since I was much younger.  As a teacher and coach of other teachers, I am sure that my future research will take place in schools and will involve the instruction of teachers and the learning of students for much of the time.  I will most likely want to make sure that the students in a particular study are learning and gleaning as much benefit as possible from the intervention or other work occurring with them.  I will most likely want to make sure that the teachers are instructing to the best of their ability as well so as to maximize student achievement.  Interfering though this way could affect the course of the research, that is unless the effect of such interference happens to be what is under study.

Another "I" to note is what I will call my "social justice or activist I."  This is the "I" that mostly drove me to becoming a teacher in the first place.  It involves my desire to make a difference in the lives of children and to make sure that each and every one receives the best education possible.  It is the reason for where I work (a public school in the South Bronx) and for why I deal with so many difficult issues in a field where the hours are long and the money could be better.  I tend to see what occurs at work through this lens and strive to advocate for students and their families who have very little voice in a vast bureaucratic system that seems to favor the rights of teachers over those who are most in need and who the teachers are employed to help.  I will need to work to keep this lens in check so that I am able to conduct my research without having the process and result be replete with biased judgments about the systemic dysfunction of education as most likely will be shown through the work at hand.  You see of course though that this paragraph alone was full of the very bias I am writing about here!  It will not be easy.

The last "I" of note for this blog entry is my "foster care survivor I."  I spent much of my childhood growing up in two different foster homes.  As a result, I can identify with many of the students with whom I work.  Some live in foster homes, others in shelters of various kinds, and still others are at home with either a single parent or grandparent or other family member/individual who happens to be the primary caregiver.  In general, the lives of these students are difficult.  Resources, financial and otherwise, are meager and consequently, these students have much more to worry about than your average typical student in a similar grade but who grows up in a more stable and plentiful environment.  Again as I work with such students in future research, while I will continue to feel empathy for them, I will need to make sure that this empathy does not cloud what I do or make me treat these students in a way that causes a particular perception of this group or the group of children not a part of this category, a perception that results in a flaw affecting the entire research process.

It is important for me to be aware of these "I"s as well as to be on the lookout for others as I embark on this endeavor to be a qualitative researcher.  By being aware of them from the start, I can strive to make sure that I will bring honesty and openness to the experience and see the participants and course of the study for what it is and not what it appears to be when viewed by my "I"s.

What Are My "I"s?

Before reading Peshkin (1988), I thought subjectivity was something I had to carefully guard against in my research. I hadn’t thought of it as something unavoidable, something to be understood and weighed, but reading “In Search of Subjectivity – One’s Own” has made me realize that my subjectivity is a part of me that I need to try to understand better. I am very early on in my thinking about this, but here are a few of the “I”s I see in myself so far:
The Teacher I is hard to separate from the Researcher I. When have to test my students, for progress monitoring, IEP evaluations, or for research, it is hard not to turn everything into a lesson. I find it hard to follow the script that comes with standardized tests without letting inflections creep into my voice in a way that makes the test seem more like a lesson – so hard to evaluate without slipping in some teaching! Does this cause my test results to be less than accurate for my struggling students?
The Mother I wants to take care of all my students, and her heart breaks for each of them when they are frustrated or sad. I want to scoop them up in my arms and comfort them, but does this “I” influence me to read things into my research results; and prevent me from critically evaluating student performance?
The Judgmental I - I am embarrassed to admit to this one, but I get annoyed at the parents when I can see that a student is not being properly cared for by his or her family. For example, a little girl in my class often comes in with her hair dirty and uncombed, is not bathed frequently enough, and is often wearing the same clothes two or more days in a row. (With my principal’s permission, I have spoken to her parents about this; they don’t believe it is healthy to bath more than once a week, so I asked them to change her clothes more often.) She comes from a low SES family, and her parents do not speak English well, and do not read or write. I understand that her family’s resources are limited, but it still upsets me when I see that she is dirty, and I feel angry that her parents don’t do simple things, like having her bathe and washing her clothes. When I think about it, I know that their lives are not easy, and I really don’t know what it would be like to walk in their shoes. There is probably some part of this “Judgmental I” that creeps into how I evaluate my research, though I need to figure out how.
The Critical I kicks in when I think my kids are spoiled or have poor manners. Some of them, typically the higher SES kids, tend to talk to adults like they are servants, while others seem not to have been taught common courtesies (e.g., “excuse me” when you bump into someone). Do I judge these students’ work more severely? I like to think I don’t, but maybe…
The Religious/spiritual I - I haven’t figured out yet how this “I” would effect my research, but it is part of my being, and certainly worth thinking about. The majority of the population in my neighborhood is, as I am, Christian; am I less sensitive than I should be to those of other faiths around me?
I’m sure I am just beginning to scratch the surface of my subjective “I”s.

Who am I as a researcher

The question asked in class-- who are we as researchers? What are we comfortable with is becoming more important in reality as I start to think about what it is I want to do. Through the early readings in the text, I looked at the five different approaches and saw each one of them as relevant, but I was unattached to any of them in particular. As I think more deeply about them, as I think more about which one of the approaches best matches my personality, I can honestly say-- I like them all. That doesn't help, but I can certainly see how some of the approaches might be a better fit than others. I am seeing, as I think about what I might want to do, an overlap and can certainly see how some can lead into others. Creswell (2007) stresses the importance of understanding that one must be able to pose the need for the study. I agree with his idea that the word problem is a misnomer(p. 102). I associate the word problem with other things, so framing the research problem as a need make it easier for me to understand. I note as well that it is mentioned that the need for study is often rooted in personal experiences and job related problems as well as other things. Of all the items listed, the ones that struck a cord with me were the two just mentioned. I have noticed certain things as a sixth-grade English teacher in the work I receive from students and often do not know how to incorporate what I am witnessing on the job with my teacher role. I have experience (if that is the correct word) in trying to figure the problem out and in coming to the conclusion that what I am seeing is becoming more of a trend instead of a one shot deal. What am I noticing? I am noticing that students are incorporating a lot of text-talk language into formal writing. In essays and papers that are turned in, standard English is still the norm, but more and more often, the type of "talk" they use on social networks and cell phones is appearing in their work. As I became more and more aware of this phenomenon, questions starting forming in my head, long before this class and long before I started this program. The questions were many and are growing and I am not going to mention them all, it would take too long, but I am going to throw a few general ones out to my reading public. I might add, that now since this course started, I am realizing that my questions themselves need to be categorized into more manageable units and that some of the questions I have actually are moving away from what I thought I was interested in.

So what am I thinking about?

1. How will writing change as more and more students become familiar with using text-type language
2. Will writing begin to take on a different "Look" or "format"
3. Will standard writing conventions be thrown away
4. Will students continue to blur the line between what is acceptable writing on a phone to friends on a social network and what is acceptable in academic settings
5. Will academics start to accept text-talk
6. What are the states noticing in their state direct assessment of writing tests and what are they doing about it
7. Will students who struggle with writing in standard format struggle less if their writing tools change
8. Will increased comfort in writing via technology lead to more comfort in the classroom
9. Will the quality of their writing change
10. will their interest and engagement increase through writing in a different format
11. will this increased engagement created better performances overall
12. will the writing they do on computers in different formats produce more authentic writing
13. will they talk more to each other and share ideas more on computer sites than they do in classroom talk
14. will their motivation increase to revise writing or continue writing if they get immediate feedback from their peers online
15. will they be busy checking for responses more frequently, and if so, will they go back to work on something they "thought was finished"
16. will writing become more enjoyable as technology use increases
17. will new systems of assessments need to be formed
18. does writing with the anonymity and distance make a difference
19. is digital writing a new cultural-language in development
20. what happens to punctuation, do we need new rules about conventions

There are a lot of questions posted above, a mere sampling, but as I study these questions more carefully I realize that they are not really looking at the same things. Some are looking at motivation, some are looking at assessment, some are looking at writing-rules, some are looking at language development, some are looking at questions that might affect the future of how education is delivered, some are looking at the exponential growth of technology and so on. So what does this mean to me as a potential researcher? It means I have to narrow my focus and really think of what the essential central question is and pinpoint those questions that are supportive and closely related to the central question. It means that I have to figure out what the most important thing for me is and what will add the most to the literature and information currently available. It means that I have to choose the best way to study the problem. I might have to create several central questions, all framed differently to reflect different approaches and then figure out which approach will serve the problem and me the best. What I am realizing is that there is a lot of background work to do before the work can begin. I am realizing the vast amount of planning that is necessary and the importance of the memoing activity in order to keep a close watch on how the dynamics change. This is no small task to be sure!

My "I's"

Some of my "eyes" on my "I's", as I think about them will clearly need some deep thinking. Some of them will probably need to be tamed at the least, and shackled in the extreme. Not because any of them are bad "I's", but they may get in the way of my more objective-I which I know I can be, but might not always be. Let me explain.

One of my "I's" is the Mommy-I. I like being a mother. I raised three children. They are grown, but just because they no longer need to be diapered doesn't mean that I have stopped wanting to care for them, love them, and protect them. I want them to make mistakes because my "intellectual-I" knows that learning from mistakes often results in growth and development, but the "Mommy-I" still wants to protect them from hurt and pain. My "Mommy-I" could very easily, if not watched turn into an "Enabling I" which doesn't really teach anything in the long run, but often feels better in the short run. So how does this "Mommy-I" affect my stance as a researcher? It depends. It depends on how much I want whoever I am studying to get hurt or to struggle. If I see a particular student struggling-- trying hard, but struggling, my "Mommy-I" might want to step in and provide help, information, too many cues or easy-way-outs because it will make his or her struggle easier. But truth be told, it might also serve to make my struggle easier. I, when ensconced in my "Mommy-I" do not want to feel any cognitive dissonance. I want to give everything I can to ease the way. Perhaps that makes me feel like a better "Mommy." So what if I give them the answer? So what if I put a smile on a face and make the struggle easier to cope with? So what if I give the solution? The problem, as my "Intellectual-I" knows, is that the best lessons are learned when they are internally driven, when the subject happens upon a solution that comes from within. It means more, and probably will be longer lasting. It is like that old adage, Give a man a fish and he eats for one meal, teach a man to fish, and he eats for a lifetime. The "Mommy-I" is a good "I" to have, it is part of who I am, but that "Mommy-I" will always have to be in the forefront of my mind, so I can watch when it steps out when it should remain in.

I have a "Therapist-I" I always felt that if I hadn't become a teacher, I could have become a therapist. Maybe it has to do with the years I spent in therapy, maybe it has to do with the fact that my beloved step mother was a therapist. My father is not a therapist, but I swear he became one through osmosis, through the 24 years he was married to my step mother, Trudy. There was always a standing joke in my house as I grew up in Woodmere, New York, and the standing joke was "There is no small talk in Woodmere." We never talked about the weather, or sports, or cars. We talked about what was making you angry, or why are you being so passive aggressive, or tell me what it is about your dreams or your relationships that cause you to do what you do. We were always talking about how our many losses impacted our lives and so on and so on. I learned through my "Therapist-I" that things aren't always what they seem, and that often to grow and learn, one must stop often to assess who one is, what is important and what one thinks. My "Therapist-I" believes in talking it out, it believes in communication, it believes that no one can really fully live if they don't face the eight or nine hundred pound gorillas that sit on shoulders. My "Therapist-I" believes that this too shall pass and that the key to growth is understanding, forgiveness, assistance, and the belief that people can and should help each other grow without judgment or value. How will this impact me as a researcher? I guess it depends on who I am working with, and what the problems are. My "Therapist-I" wants to help fix and make peace. In many ways, my "Therapist-I" is a close cousin to my "Mommy-I." I am going to have to let others stand by and struggle a bit until they come to their own awakening. It is not always easy to do. Students sometimes struggle with coming up with answers. I can see their discomfort. It would be so much easier to give it to them. I have learned to become comfortable with the uncomfortable silence. It is okay to let silent space fill the air. Not every moment has to be filled with an answer. Sometimes there is no answer--at least at that moment. My "Therapist-I" understands that it is okay to let something remain unanswered even though that "Therapist-I" sometimes is engaged in a battle with my "Mommy-I"

My "I can talk to anyone I" I can talk to anyone, at anytime, anyplace. It is exciting to me to meet different people and talk to them even if I know that I will never see them again. My immediate-I loves that. It is an opportunity I must take because if I pass that opportunity up, I might miss something wonderful. I might learn something that will affect my life. I might learn something that will make me see the world in a different fashion, I may be inspired to do things I never thought possible, and I may have the chance to give something to someone else. It goes right along with my "Teacher-I" and how moved I always am when past students come back to visit or remind of something that I did or said that impacted them. It never fails to warm my heart and it still surprises me when that happens. I am always amazed at how much I affected someone. I always hope that to be the case as a teacher, but am still astounded at it when it does happen--especially when the things the students remember are not those things that I thought would have ever had such an effect. Those teachable moments. The "I can talk to anyone I" opens the world for ideas and opinions. I feel a deep kinship to the character, Nan, in Elizabeth Berg's book The Pull of the Moon." Nan, who takes a road trip away from her husband and meets people, encounters ideas and learns about herself in a way that she never could have done in her husband's presence. The "Freedom-I" which I guess is another I for later. But the "I can talk to anyone I" has its issues. Opening yourself up to others, and learning about things you did not know existed can make you vulnerable. It might make you question your own lived-life. It might make you feel that your own life is not as exciting as someone else's. You might begin to feel dissatisfied. That could be scary, but I keep that in check, because my "I can talk to anyone I" believes it is worth the risk and that vulnerability is not to be feared. It is to be embraced as used as a launching pad for deeper and stronger growth. How will this "I" affect me as a researcher? I suppose I will have to limit the number of people I can talk to. The truth is that I can't talk to everyone during whatever research I do, I will have to be selective. Talking to everyone will take me off task, a problem that I have in general. I frequently have to remind myself to limit and to focus. It affects me in many ways--especially in my writing. I am a journal keeper, I am a great stream of consciousness writer. I let my mind go and my words follow. It leads to some wonderful poetry, and some intense personal narrative pieces, but doesn't often serve me well in more focused writing. It is a good thing I am a true believer in the writing process and in revision. I revise a lot as my writing progresses to make sure that what I say stays on track and doesn't wander to Tibet when I have to stay in New York. So I am going to have to be careful with the "I can talk to anyone I" to make sure that those I talk to are purposeful, meaningful and pertinent to my goal. The others will have to wait for another conversation.

"The Teacher-I" This is a big I. It occupies most of my waking hours, even my sleeping hours especially in August when the proverbial teacher dreams occur. You know those dreams: You get to school, but don't know where to go and you are late. You get to school and you forget everything. You get up to go to school, but you realize school started two weeks ago and you weren't there. My "Teacher-I" is evolving into a more democratic form. I do not believe that I know it all, I am not afraid of my students. I now look to them to learn myself. If I make a mistake or don't know something, I can be the honest-teacher and say I do not know- help me. This is a good type of teacher to be because it takes the stress off. When I used to feel I had to know everything because I would appear weak if I did not, I became more guarded and not as free to teach. I was, in a sense, more afraid of them than they were of me and I think fear needs to be taken out of the classroom. An addendum to the Teacher-I is the "I also have a life I" I share my lived-world with my students. I make myself more real, more reachable, more authentic. Yes, students, I do go shopping and I do buy milk. I live in the same town that I work in, a small town, and the look on student faces when they see me in the grocery store is often a cross between shock and awe. I now ask them "Hey, which cereal should I buy?" They inevitably give me advice, and then ask if I liked it on Monday. My "Teacher-I" and my "I also have a life I" builds community. I love this "I" but understand its pitfalls- Boundaries. I like a good story and can tell a good story, but this "I" needs boundaries. I have to separate my "Teacher-I with the I also have a life I" sometimes to maintain my professionalism and distance. I have learned to tell parents that I can not have a teacher conference in the milk aisle. I can not discuss your child's socializing in class in the middle of the cereal aisle. This boundary issue is an issue that I am sure will come to greet me in research. I will have to make sure my objectivity stays objective, and that my work stays my work, and does not bleed into friend-time or acquaintance-time. It is an "I" that must be monitored.

I have other "I's" but they are going to have to wait until later because right now "I" (the individual, the person) have other things to do--like grade papers. Until later, this real "I" is signing off.

Back again with another I. I discovered that I have a Passionate-I. I love what I do and when I get excited about something, it shows. Everything, from when I find a great dessert I like to cook, to the shoes I buy--When I love something, it is clearly out there. I think passion is a great motivator. It is infectious, like a 'good' disease. I mentioned in a post about a class I had in school about on-line learning that my passion was so strong about what might occur in the classroom that I fell off a desk I was sitting on. It was great. (The embarrassment not so great, but who cares because the passion was so evident) What I became aware of though is that as researcher, the Passionate-I could affect me. I became aware that my Passionate-I has to remain my I. I don't mind if it is seen, but I have to be very careful that my passion does not intimidate others. I have to be careful that my passion does not lead someone else into behaviors or comments or expressed thoughts that are being given to make me like them more or react more favorably. I do not want my passion to stimulate false passion in others. You do not have to be passionate about the same things I am, but I also understand that if one is passionate, hopefully it will trigger someone else to be passionate about-something. And it is through that hope that I think my Passionate-I should exist.

Speaking of Truth...From the First Day of Class...

What is truth?  How does one uncover it?
I think that truth is in the eye of the beholder.  My truth may not be exactly your truth.  I suppose that there are some universal truths we can all agree on, such as there are seven days in a week.  That may be more of a convention upon which we all agree.  In regards to uncovering truth, I think it begins with a hypothesis but requires investigation and possibly consensus to be accepted and believed.

Jeanne thinks this makes me a "post-positivist"...what do you think?

Ethics of Qualitative Research (Soltis) - A dilemma

Soltis's chapter, "The Ethics of Qualitative Research, he presents many examples of situations that may face the qualitative researcher, and recommendations on how each may be handled. There was one situation, however, where he poses an issue, but does not make a recommendation of how the situation should be handled: What should a researcher do if he either witnesses or is informed of a participant involved in illegal activities? He uses the examples of mugging someone, or buying drugs (p. 252). Should the researcher "break confidence and lose research?" or keep it to him- or herself and "let the authorities handle things?"

I think this issue could be very complicated, depending on a number of issues, like how important the researcher feels the research project is, for promoting needed social or political change, for example. He or she may hesitate to derail a project that coul be important to an underserved segment of the population, despite a nagging responsibility to report the wrongdoing.

My first reaction would be that the researcher would have to report the illegal activity no matter what, but maybe the answer could change, depending on the nature of the crime. It seems like the researcher would have to report the wrongdoing if someone was, or was going to be hurt; if the wrongdoing did not involve harm to people (e.g., theft of property), maybe it is a little fuzzier, I don't know! What are your thoughts on this?