Friday, January 28, 2011

Truth Is there Really a Definition?

Truth, what is it? I suppose it depends on who you are at any given moment and how much you want to show of what resides inside. Truth may be hidden under the shield you wear to mask your weaknesses. Truth may be hidden under the disguise you wear to mask your vulnerabilities. Truth may be hidden under the darker truths that sit in the belly of your mind.

Truth can be your shield, a self protective cover that keeps you safe. Away from darkness. Embrace that truth, come to believe in its validity. And still the definition. Truth is the lump in your throat when you know you are helpless to aid someone else, and they know it, too, but neither party has the courage to admit it. Truth is the tear that leaks from your eye when you realize that the baby you once held in your arms is about to walk down the matrimonial aisle and you realize that as a mother, you will never be needed again in the same way you once were. Truth is knowing what to do with that knot.

Truth is stripping away the armor you've build up over the years- the what-ifs, and the if-onlys, and the I-should-haves, and the I'm sorrys, and the I-just-thoughts and the if-only-you-understoods and owning up to your responsibilities. Truth is shaking hands with the actions you engaged in without the forethoughts of consequences that might ensue.

Truth is a spiral of changing dynamic forces, shifting like wind blown desert sands that follow the growth of one's attempts to make meaning of the world. Truth is being able to embrace the struggle to leave one's mark on the world before one's final truth comes to pass.